Mar 27, 2011

Confessions of a Young Mind

Ever wondered what bothers you? 

The emptiness within which threatens to take away your sanity, is no random phone call. It is, in fact, a precursor of future and a hangover of the past. For no concrete reason, your faith stumbles and the road ahead seems to go nowhere. Black suddenly becomes a beast, sans all its beauty and polish.

With hope in your eyes and expectations in your heart, you turn towards love. You presume it to be a cool cucumber in scorching heat. Without realizing, the fruit itself blossoms in dry sand and immense adversity. What is love? You wonder. A mirage, smiling at you from a distance and vanishing every time you thought you had it? A rainbow, up there in the sky with its exuberant colors, but out of reach by some good 'n' miles? The answer eludes you. You keep guessing only to find yourself running out of gas.


You were too young and unimportant to understand nuances of emotions. By the time your wisdom germinated, hues of emotions changed. So love becomes responsibility, responsibility a requirement and you realize, you don't know what's required?

While spinning that empty bottle of beer, you don't know which way would it point. The alcohol in your blood does not let you ponder over the possibilities. Who bothers to measure 'height' when you are on a 'high'. But the depth scares you when you are lying low.

You try and look towards your future. And get tangled in the mirage and rainbow theory. Fear becomes a tenant in your heart. Anxiety occupies the top floor, brain to be precise. The clock starts to tick fast. You remember your dad emphasizing the importance of wearing a watch. 

World was never as beautiful as you imagined it to be. Its time to get real, you think. Enough of virtual euphoria. Straightaway you head towards a temple, and that myth of getting real is quashed, right there at the entrance of God's abode.

You look in the mirror and laugh at yourself. Some even cry. The difference lies in the way you wash your face, wipe your tears.

Ever wondered what bothers you?

18 comments:

  1. "there are ways and there is always".... simple and complex in the same breathe. Former part looks pessimistic while the other half always absorb optimism..

    time-line of Youth is very innocent, either die stretching/strengthening it or re-incarnate it....

    Emoted with very personal inks, high-class writing which forces the reader to go in a self-discovery kinda mode... lovely one :)

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  2. Thanks Ram..Was a random post..but an honest one..Glad that u connected!! :)

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  3. A Very good write up, full of quotable lines. The very first line is punchy and captures one’s attention instantly. You seem to have used your heart and mind at the same time while writing this post. Deep, thoughtful and AWESOME!! :)

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  4. Thanks Shikha..:)) I had a feeling you would comment on this post..after all that cricket crazy stuff..:P..The gap between quarters and semis gave me a chance to write something different..and I hope i hav done justice to it..

    Thanks for the generous praise..Keep following me..:))

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  5. This is seriously awesome stuff. Doesn't even look like coming from a content editor. You've become a complete professional and terrific writer. Hoping to read you on a bigger scale soon. :)

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  6. @ Lebanox...What do you mean by "Doesn't even look like coming from a content editor"..:P..Pehle kya lagta tha..?? and who says Content Editors cant write..When they can edit..:P

    BTW Thanks for the generous praise..Inshallah, one day! :D

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  8. Arrey, by that line I mean it is way beyond all your blog posts. ( I am not counting facebook notes here. They are beyond's one's imagination level!)

    And ofcourse they write but I don't think any of the other content writers can pour in their thoughts with such finesse. But again, no offense. Sab maze me kaha tha! :)

    One last line: You're awesome. :)

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  9. You are being too sweet..Still I ll take it..:)

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  10. :) what to say...... u r actually a creative n a thoughtful person!!!! agree to every word written by u! :D

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  11. I am glad that u read it finally..Thanks.>:))

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  12. Once again, i was reading it & loved this write up!!!

    Who bothers to measure 'height' when you are on a 'high'. But the depth scares you when you are lying low.- SO TRUE!!! :)

    A very mature write up and i feel entire youth shd go thru it :)

    LOVELY!!!!

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  13. poetic,flowing,contemplative.......
    like a soul stirring,scrutinizing,redemption song...

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  14. Thank U Ravi..I am Glad u liked it this much :D

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  15. true portrayal of some very deep seated fears...!!! great work..!!

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